Awakening Takes Time

Spiritual Awakening is a process that requires patience and allowing if we are to enjoy the ride.  A human cannot ascend to self-realization in an instant, that's called death.  Our human bodies are not yet designed to hold the orgasmic, powerful energy of our Source God.  We have to slowly build-up our strength of conviction, faith, and prove to ourselves over and over again, through our life experiences, that we are eternal Source God beings inhabiting a physical body.  We are not our physical bodies, our physical bodies are just our current container for our Source God selves.  When we know this for sure, we are ready to hold, in our bodies and physical life experience, a higher voltage of Source God energy.  And we can slowly build up our ability to store larger and larger amounts through living our lives by feeling this powerful vibrational energy in our physical bodies.

In the Torah, Old Testament, there is a story that is an example of this.  Aaron's sons, Nadav and Avihu approached the Ark of the Covenant as they knew there was something more than physical life and wanted to experience it directly (my guess is that this incident occurred late at night, after smoking some good weed, or the equivalent, and being in a very High state of consciousness and Oneness).  Nadav and Avihu fully attained the same state (vibration) that was Source God and they emerged back into that blissful non-physical state.  Their bodies were left perfectly intact.  Fortunately, for us humans, Evolution has been designing a new model of physical body each year.  So that we are more able to attain higher and higher states and still come back to our physical bodies.  This is the process of Waking Up, and we are all doing it in our own individual ways and time frames.  The question is, are we IN-JOY-ING this Waking Up process or are we frustrated that it is not here yet? 

It's our choice, and today I am choosing to be IN-JOY deliberately and patiently......feeling the Presence of Source God energy alive and vibrating in my physical body and knowing that All Is Well!

Jaco Pastorius and Superman

Last night I watched a 2 hour video on the life of the bass player Jaco Pastorius.  Jaco had an amazing ability to singularly focus his energy on playing the bass, desiring to become "the best bass player in the world".  He redefined the instrument and reached his goal in a fairly short period of time.  But his life ended early, he was 36, and tragically, as he ended up living in the streets and getting physically beat so bad that it killed him (this is a judgment only from our human perspective).

Jaco's intense desire to focus on playing the bass and the attention he gave to it left him with little energy and attention for practicing other aspects of human life.  This led to a big imbalance in his being that he was not able to manage.  We are all like Jaco in that we have the ability to focus and create ourselves into anything we want to be, do, or have.  Jaco gives us a fabulous example of that.  His story stimulates me to reassess my life and ask myself, what am I giving my attention and energy to?  Focusing on and practicing my dreams?  Or does it feel like my energy and attention is being diverted to watch TV, watch sports, go to movies, post to my FB page several times a day?  Time to Wake-Up!  We are in a temporary human existence and we get to be in this playground for a relatively short period.  We came here to create and have fun creating.

All humans are like Superman.  We are eternal beings that can fly around the world and universe and we have Superpowers that transcend the physical world we live in.  And when we go into our phone booth to connect to our conscious awareness of it, we can live in that Superman state and let go of the small stuff that doesn't matter.  And the attention we pay to the small stuff is our Kryptonite, the one thing that drains our energy and makes us impotent.  In the physical world today we are surrounded by Kryptonite.  There are black holes of it everywhere that are sucking our energy and attention....AND.....we are allowing it to happen.

Okay, but there is stuff that needs to be done like working and paying the bills, and laundry, and things that I need to take care of to assist my physical body's needs.  Okay, back to Clark Kent, physical being in the physical world.  But Clark is aware and awake, and knows that he can at any time become Superman again.  This is the back and forth that humans need to understand and to practice, practice, practice, so that it becomes a natural and familiar thing to do.

That is the life experience that I want to live.  Dream about what I want, know that I can create it, look for signs every day that is the manifestation of my creation, and be in the joyous celebration of my creation's unfolding!

Focus and Piercing the Matrix

I had a vision this morning that made me realize something.

I have been thinking about the "Matrix" (the totality of physical life on planet earth) and my desire to create my own experience in it.  I saw the earth from space viewpoint with a rather tight netting covering it.  It seemed the only way to pierce this netting was to go through one of it's tiny holes.  I also saw humans not as physical bodied beings, but as energy packets consisting only of consciousness.  It seemed that the bigger consciousnesses were pretty massive and thinking about so many things that it seemed impossible for this big mind in action, to singularly focus (much like a laser beam).

By focusing singularly we are taking something that we love to do and putting all our energy and attention into it.  By focusing in this way we are letting go of anything that does not feel important to the focused activity that we have chosen, and as long as that focused activity feels good doing it, we are practicing being happy.  And happy starts showing up in all areas of our lives.

I realized that this is the reason I have chosen music as my object of focus.  The act of playing music engages both sides of my brain.  My left side is engaged by the physical playing, using my body parts to create a sound.  And my right side is engaged in creativity, imagining the sound.   This is "The Zone", and it's possible for us to deliberately guide ourselves there......thus consciously creating our life experience and living our dreams in a happy and joyous way!

One Key to Happiness

Not Taking Things Seriously

I recently had an insight that I wanted to share.  The image that came to me was one of a microscope that was intently focused on something very small and detailed.  Us physical humans work the same way as a microscope.  We have the ability to focus and we do this by using our powers of concentration and attention.  "Energy flows where attention goes".  This is how we create manifested physical things.  

Sometimes its fun...when it's working easily... and other times it sucks because we are not getting what we want.  And it's so easy to get so caught up in the minutiae of everything because there is drama there, and fear, and danger, and excitement!  I find that choosing this way, staying focused on the minutiae, is something that I don't want.  I've experienced it and I don't like it.  I am choosing the opposite experience.....I want to stay focused on the energy source behind all that is, where there is no judgment, no opinions, no frivolity, just pure positive feelng, loving, understanding, oneness.  That is clearly my choice and directing my thoughts and actions in the physical world towards living in that state is in alignment with my soul's desire.  Sometimes it's working easily...and other times it still sucks!  But it sucks at a much higher level.  It sucks but I am not attached to the suckness of it, I can let it go and not take it seriously, know it's minutiae, laugh at it, accept it, embrace it, and then divert my attention from it, just let it go, I distract myself with something else to focus on....something that feels good to focus on.....like playing music, or going for a bicycle ride. 

We are meant to live a joyous and expansive life experience.  That's what we all came here for.  Fun, Joy, and Freedom.  Are our lives mostly being lived in that experience?  I think not, it hadn't been for me anyway.  Life had been whispering to me but I couldn't hear it, wasn't aware or open to hear it.  Then the whispering turned louder until it became a SHOUT!   

S     T     O     P     

And then the small, still, voice - chill out, take a break, reassess, get a different perspective, there is something you are missing.........don't take anything seriously....be happy, have fun!  Then the voice got louder, easier to hear (because I was practicing hearing it).....

you are a powerful being and you can be, do, or have anything you want.  

Dream it, Believe it, Achieve it!

Shaving My Head

I have been thinking of shaving my head.  I have been growing my hair now for 3  years running and I am wanting a change.  My hair feels like a distraction, taking care of it, moving it out of the way, washing it......the list goes on.  So I am imagining what it would feel like with my head shaved...and it's something that I have experienced before so I know what it will feel like and it feels good to focus on that.....but.....it's been 3 years since I have cut it so it's a decision I don't take lightly.  And I know from experience that there is an energy shift that will happen as my new appearance will be changed strikingly.

Another rumination.  I think the energy of my Maternal Grandmother, who is my favorite ancestor of this life experience, is trying to contact me.  About 5 days ago as I was in conversation with a friend and the words "Thanks God" came out with the same Eastern European Jewish accent that my Grandmother had.  I instantly recognized the connection but not the significance.....until later that day as I was thinking about what happened and focusing on it.  The reason it was so apparent is because I have never heard that phrase or that accent since my Grandma passed away 20 years ago.  But it's only a very subtle coincidence.....so I did not feel the need to take any action of any kind, I just noted it.  Then, within the next 48 hours, I heard the same phrase and the same accent 3 more times!!!  Okay, Grandma, I get it......thank you, I Love You!  I have been really wanting more contact with the non-physical energies that are always around me and have been asking for connection and guidance regarding that.  Grandma's energy is answered prayer.  And the best selection because I can easily feel my Grandma's unbounding Love because I have felt it before and I am familiar with it.

Aha!  I have connected these two seemingly separate subjects.  I want to cut my hair but I also want to do it being conscious and aware that it signifies a shift, a transformation.  In other words, I want a reason to do it, that would make me feel better about it.  Wanting to tap into outside, non-physical guidance gives me the strong reason I am looking for to now cut my hair ceremoniously and deliberately.

Life above the Matrix - Living with Fear and Limitlessness

I had a realization this morning that felt so amazingly fearful and expansive at the same time.  The fearful part I am in the process of re-labeling and re-programming into my "thoughtware".  There was a lot of excited energy in the fearful part that I can palpably feel in my human body.  It is a rush and a waking up from a previously unrealized mudane, static, state of being.  This is how it unfolded..........

This morning I went into meditation with my daily cup of F.R.E.A.K. Coffee, and I allowed all of the pending projects, lifestyle decisions, and whatever else I was thinking about, to fade away.  As I felt the energy of the coffee being ecstatically absorbed by my body, my energy field started to actively vibrate.  This is something I can feel,  and is closer to my true state of being.  I began to feel myself ascend high to the earth's atmosphere, and then I recalled a recent situation that occurred 3 days ago.  I was looking down on myself and took in the entire scene.  Without getting into details, I viewed my reaction and behavior very predictable and something that I have practiced so much, it has become a natural (unconscious) way of being. 

I then felt myself rise above the earth's atmosphere and rise above the matrix into Free Space.  Ahhh.....this is the place I know, I like, and feels sooo good!   

Repetitive Behavioral Patterns in Earth's Matrix

Back down to my situation on the earth plane, I saw how it was possible for me to choose a different reaction and a different course of action.  Instantly I felt afraid, energetically backing away from the audacity!  THE AUDACITY to behave 180 degrees apart from my MO, my personality, my genetics, my character......AND.....the excitement!  I could feel the energy in my body activated and vibrating.  Then it all made perfect sense.  I AM not confined to my situation, my history, my predictability.  I CAN rise above it all, pierce the veil of the matrix and curiously, fascinatingly, excitedly, youthfully, see what will happen. 

I AM more than my horoscope, my fate, my future. 

I AM boundless, infinite, daring, courageous!